So now that “one of the hardest years” of high school is over…I feel relieved yet so disappointed. I can’t believe my gpas for both semester is so low; not like 3.6 or 3.8 kind of low for all you smart kids out there but low as in I can’t even go to a UC. Well it would be hard.  So many people around me are so amazing at everything they do; varsity in sports, 4.0 unweighted, class president, active in everything, and they still manage to sleep before 10 pm.  I know I shouldn’t compare myself to others but it makes me so sad that I can’t even get a decent gpa or go to sleep before 3 am.  I can honestly say that I have put in way more effort this year than Freshmen year, especially since this is the first year taking honors and AP classes, but I KNOW that I haven’t fully pushed myself to what I can do.  There’s no excuses for my grades, and I know I should have put school as first priority. If other people got my grades, I know their parents would make them quit sports/extracurricular. But I LOVE what I do and what I’m involved with and I wouldn’t change that for the world. But if next year I continue to get low gpas, I might have to. But I’m not going to let myself.

Next year will be even harder than this year.  I just have to know myself and how much I can handle.  But I’m forcing myself to pick the right classes and continue to be involved in Interact, leadership, sports, ect. I’m aiming high and I’m not letting myself fall low like this year.

I can’t let myself fall again. 

But nonetheless, I guess I can be a little proud of myself for doing things I’ve never done before.  I need to understand that school has priority though.